The Crush

I am famous among my group of friends for how many crushes I get every month. I've spent the past two weeks without any real crush and it's been a VERY weird feeling for me. It's just not normal for me. AND not only do I have crushes all the time I tend to have long-lasting crushes because generally I'm way too chickenshit to act on them. The longest crush I've ever had was probably several years. To be honest I have a very long crush (several years) I've never quite been able to give up on. It flares up every couple months...and drives me a little bit insane. But that's boys for you.
I've always loved a new crush. They're so exciting. All the excitement and possibility that you feel just bubbles up until you're smiling and making bad jokes. Or at least I am. I'm kind of a wear it on my sleeve gal with regard to my feelings. But right now it feels kind of nice to not be burned down by a crush because more often than not that's all my crushes ever end up being. Crushes with no follow through. The few relationships I've had have been the result of a suitable guy appearing in the general vicinity and taking a fancy to me. I met my first boyfriend in the waiting room of the local hospital at 12 o'clock in the morning. That sort of describes my life as it relates to boys. When I talk about it, I generally say that relationships tend to fall on me.